Another way to look at it.....

So I MAY be a little bit guilty of sometimes expressing frustration about how much the little people in my life (our Matea, ESPECIALLY) seem to need to be touching me at all times, or need to be able to see me at all times, or want ME to feed them or get them their favorite drink...sometimes it ridiculous.  

Don't get me wrong, they love their Dad, ALOT....but sometimes just seem to need their mama. 

Now, of course with Matea it is a little bit different.  I think because I have been able to stay home with her, and we have been on this Autism journey together since day 1, I think I am just a comfort for her.

When she is scared, or frustrated or feeling anxious, it is comforting to climb into Mom's lap and calm down, just like a typical five year old.  And when she is melting down, or terrified of something new that is happening, I know how to squeeze her and plug her ears just right to help.  I know when to tickle and when, to give her a piggy back.  I am always there for speech, occupational therapy, and ABA therapy.

I'm always there :)

Now with always being "there" also comes the need for her to come and find me while I am taking 14 seconds to pee and she thrusts her communication book at me and requests fruit snacks, when she insists on holding my hand the ENTIRE time she is in the bath tub, or when we are at soccer and she is participating with her aide - but then she spots me taking pictures across the field and NEEDS a hug, ASAP.

she spots me...

 she got me in her sights.....

 she's excited...

 elated, actually...

 ready for my hug now!

SO when we were at the library on Tuesday and Matea didn't want to stay and eat her snack with her helper, and instead wanted to come with me to the washroom (ew) - I was just about to say to our helper in my usual sarcastic tone "we are just SO in love with each other, she can't stand to spend one second away from me ha ha ha"

When our helper said "she loves you SO much.  I can't imagine having someone love me as much as she loves you, it must be such an amazing feeling...."

A little bit of perspective, again, for this mama.

Feeling thankful for looking at things another way. 

♥ 

Oh yeah....and we play soccer now :)